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I'm gonna Toot my own horn, it's a year today!!

4/6/08 in Locker Room   |   Crackersex   |   91 respect

April 6Th, 2006....

 

What a rough day for me.  I had so many thoughts going through my head it almost spun right off my head!!

On that day, I knew It would be the day to change my life forever in so many ways.  One year ago today I stopped using drugs.  I never did anything major, just smoked enough pot to make Cheech and Chong look like armatures..

 

I started dating a pothead in 2000, and could count on one hand how many times I'd tried and didn't like the stuff.  As time went on, things really got rough for me.  I lived with a man who was controlling, jealous, and mean.  I picked up the pipe/bong and smoked my version of xanax to deal with him.  For those of you thinking why didn't you just leave, you've obviously never lived or dated a man like him.  It's so much easier to be the outside person looking in and think things are more normal than what they seem.  I'm good at hiding things such as emotions etc...yeah; me of all people, funny hu?

 

I never touched the stuff when he wasn't around, but when he was....it was nothing to sit and smoke an 1/8Th to forget about his b.s. and deal with him.  Funny thing is, when I moved out and started going through my stuff...I found enough of it stashed to have a pretty good sized get together and make all my smoking friends happy.  I took it all and gracefully through it out, as I didn't need it any more.  I quit cold turkey, with a decision I wasn't ever going to let anything or anyone control me again...and it hasn't!!

 

Well, I can look back at my accomplishments today and be proud.  My head and mind is clear, I like who I am...I've put on almost 40 pounds, I have a great job, my kids aren't afraid for the first time in a long time.  I have my friends back and can talk to them when they call me, text me, IM me, email me, etc.  I can go out, hang out, smile, laugh and have fun. I can joke with my guy friends, talk sports, watch sports and wear my sports stuff proudly ( Even if my Detroit Lions, don't win, I still Love them)!!

 I don't cry anymore, I'm not afraid anymore, and life is truly good!  I don't make excuses with my family or friends and can enjoy them and they can rest assured they have their old "Ang" back!!

 

This might not be a big deal to you, however to me, it's huge.  So, if you're reading this, and secretly you're into something you don't want to be in, know I'm living proof you can do ANYTHING you set your mind to do!!  It might take a while to get through it, or over it, but know it's totally worth it if that's what you set your intentions to do =)

 

So, those of you on the Q who have gotten to know me in the last year, THANK YOU!!  You've all helped me through so much in more ways than you know.  You've laughed with me, cried with me; and a handful of you have become true friends outside this site...I've learned again, the true meaning of TRUE friends and I Love ya for it!!

 

 

This isn't the best of the best, but I'm including a before photo so you can see the transformation I went through physically.  This was taken about 3 months prior to the "Cracker always Cheers for the home team" photo I first posted when I joined. 

So, with the relationship happiness and the sitting down at the new job, I truly hope a year from now my photo fits on the page, LOL!!

 

*This is the newest installment y'all have asked for, I waited for today to come to post it**

Ang....

~CrackersEXwife~

 

 

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5/5/09   |   Crackersex   |   91 respect

hskrdave wrote:
 wait a sec. what are you doing back without telling me?  Can't believe he let you out of bed long enough to post.

I thought you knew, lol.  Gotta let the man sleep sometime.  Actually he was at work when I posted the comment :) 

5/3/09   |   hskrdave   |   10650 respect

Crackersex wrote:

Thank you!!!!
I'm tryin to sneak in more often.  :)

 wait a sec. what are you doing back without telling me?  Can't believe he let you out of bed long enough to post.

5/3/09   |   Crackersex   |   91 respect

Raven73 wrote:
WOWZAAAA!!!! Congratulations sweetie! That is a HUGE accomplishment!!!
 and Hugs!!!
And you really know how to sneak in to leave some news, huh?

Thank you!!!!
I'm tryin to sneak in more often.  :)

5/3/09   |   CRAZY_LADY   |   355 respect

so proud of you ang and you desever all the happiness and may god keep blessing you and your family . so proud to have you as a friend

5/3/09   |   Raven73   |   103 respect

Crackersex wrote:
Thank you for such kind words.  That photo really makes me sad looking back.  I can't believe how THIN I was!!! What hasn't killed me made me stronger today.  I am happy, going to school, enjoying life and have an amazing man in my life...and GREAT FRIENDS!!!!
 I am now on YEAR 2 DRUG FREE!!

WOWZAAAA!!!! Congratulations sweetie! That is a HUGE accomplishment!!!
 and Hugs!!!
And you really know how to sneak in to leave some news, huh?

5/2/09   |   Crackersex   |   91 respect

wrote:
Wow you have came a Long way Angie your truly an amzing woman God Bless You ! Hugs from Gregg

Thank you for such kind words.  That photo really makes me sad looking back.  I can't believe how THIN I was!!! What hasn't killed me made me stronger today.  I am happy, going to school, enjoying life and have an amazing man in my life...and GREAT FRIENDS!!!!
 I am now on YEAR 2 DRUG FREE!!

8/8/08   |   Ryan   |   153 respect

Wow, Angie!  Wish I had seen this sooner.

Absolutely wonderful!  You should be very proud.  :-)

6/18/08   |   bonbonhi

Good Job Gurl!! We all love and admire you here!! (((hugs)))

5/24/08   |   flhsbagger

Congrats on 1 year and getting your life back on track! With a clear mind and happiness on your side, everyday could be better than the last. Be proud of yourself!

5/15/08   |   Crackersex   |   91 respect

deadzeplin2 wrote:

Had no idea, our little chats have been a pleasure and I told you before I read this that I thought you were a solid human being. I apreciate you even more now and thanks for not making fun of my deformities I was dealt after the Madonna incident we spoke about. Stay strong,fight the power, good night and god bless.

ZEP

See Zep, I'm just me!!

I won't bullschizt anyone, I'm real.  Love life, Love sports and Love People!!

It's been a pleasure getting to know you as well, and again, I'm sorry bout the whole Madonna episode.  I promise to keep it real with ya and wont' send you anything else that might cause you any bodily harm, LOL!!

((HUGS))

5/15/08   |   Crackersex   |   91 respect

Lobotomy Jones wrote:
How come I'm just seeing this for the first time now?
Good for you, Angie.
About 10 years ago I went through something similar with crack. So I understand how good it feels to get your life back in order.
 

I have no idea...I didn't send it to anybody, I guess I just thought like writting.  Glad you found it and Congrats to you on your accomplishment too Lobo!!  I've always respected ya from Day one on the Q.  You've always been real and that's what I love aboutcha...well, The whole baseball head photo got me from jump...Thought that was the COOLEST thing the Q had to offer way back when when I joined.  Thanks for always having kind words to say!

((Hugs))

5/15/08   |   Crackersex   |   91 respect

Lobotomy Jones wrote:
How come I'm just seeing this for the first time now?
Good for you, Angie.
About 10 years ago I went through something similar with crack. So I understand how good it feels to get your life back in order.
 

I have no idea...I didn't send it to anybody, I guess I just thought like writting.  Glad you found it and Congrats to you on your accomplishment too Lobo!!  I've always respected ya from Day one on the Q.  You've always been real and that's what I love aboutcha...well, The whole baseball head photo got me from jump...Thought that was the COOLEST thing the Q had to offer way back when when I joined.  Thanks for always having kind words to say!

((Hugs))

5/15/08   |   Lobotomy Jones   |   7594 respect

How come I'm just seeing this for the first time now?
Good for you, Angie.
About 10 years ago I went through something similar with crack. So I understand how good it feels to get your life back in order.
 

5/15/08   |   deadzeplin2   |   2 respect

Had no idea, our little chats have been a pleasure and I told you before I read this that I thought you were a solid human being. I apreciate you even more now and thanks for not making fun of my deformities I was dealt after the Madonna incident we spoke about. Stay strong,fight the power, good night and god bless.

ZEP

4/29/08   |   Raven73   |   103 respect

 Ang~I don't know how I missed this post. You have moved me to tears. I've been that road...my story is no more devastating than the next. I was scooped out of the hands of death. All I can say is "If not for the Grace of God"...I took me 2 years to be dry before I could regain my sanity. Two years of white knuckling it...that was 22 years ago.

Thanks for reminding me and teaching us all what being "real" truly is.

4/26/08   |   r_j68

Your life is based upon the way you deal with all things,, good and bad, but most of us are remembered by the bad choices that we make.  You look GREAT and you have an awesome attitude and sense of Humor.  obviously the choice you made is the right one, and you can see the benifits overflowing through your personality and enthusiasim!

4/20/08   |   SOS

IN THE SHORT TIME I HAVE GOTTEN TO KNOW YOU  YOU HAVE DESERVED MY RESPECT . NOW TOP THAT WITH ADMIRATION.

WONDERFUL STORY

4/13/08   |   TerikaHarifa   |   9 respect

I'm proud of you and blessed to have met you.  And because i could- I sent you a text message just now too!! 

4/12/08   |   Anteros

That is awesome. Congratulations and may the blessings continue for you!

 

I have a friend in a similar situation and was wondering if maybe I could show her this, to see if she gets any inspiration from it.

 

Drop me a note if it's ok.

4/11/08   |   craign123   |   1 respect

way to go girl. the few times i've talked to you, you sound like a great person and you deserve to be happy.

4/11/08   |   battmann34

Good for you.  Very much respect to you for doing what the "experts" say cannot be done unless you go to treatments.  Bravo for your guts and backbone.  Not only for doing it but telling us about it.

 

I am overjoyed that you have found someone who really loves you and treats you the way you are supposed to be treated.  I hope that we will have the opportunity to become friends.

 

God bless you

4/11/08   |   Forty9er527

You know I'm proud of ya!  

 

Lawd @ that pic... Looking like an after school special. Don't look like you EVER got the munchies. Looking at that makes me wanna run in the kitchen n cook you up something PHAT-ning  BRING DA KOOL AID!

 

OK, I'll be waiting for my B-SLAP for this message lol

 

LOVE YA

 

4/10/08   |   Michael

Angie, What a tremendous accomplishment.  I have been clean and sober for 24 years now.  I refer to it as "Freedom from Bondage" because that is truly what is it is for me.  Life is so much more rich and alive.

Congratulations and God's Blessing to you and yours,

Michael

4/10/08   |   majikmanseven

Crackersex wrote:

~Thanks Guys~

You have no idea how much it means to me to be friends with all of you guys!!

Kinda funny how a couple of you really had no clue until I posted this blog.  Well it's here and it's living proof i'm not always a smart ass hu?

(((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))))))

angie...you are a courageous survivor! I was stunned to see that pic...and see the great pics you have posted since. I know all too well how life "can get away" from you... as between 2000-2003 I went through a nasty period of my life. Divorce, having to close a business I co-owned,addiction, suicidal thoughts...i was at rock bottom by 2004 when I made the tough decision to leave Indiana and head to CHicago to start over.To me...winners are those who have been knocked down...but get back up and croos that finish line a winner! And you are a winner! God Bless ya- Ang!

4/9/08   |   Crackersex   |   91 respect

~Thanks Guys~

You have no idea how much it means to me to be friends with all of you guys!!

Kinda funny how a couple of you really had no clue until I posted this blog.  Well it's here and it's living proof i'm not always a smart ass hu?

(((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))))))

4/9/08   |   Debi_L   |   11862 respect

Hey Ang!! I'm really glad to have read this, and really glad to have met you! I am so proud of you girl!  BIG HUGS from the Purple M&M girl!

4/7/08   |   hskrdave   |   10650 respect

lymi

4/7/08   |   Dodge#9   |   2449 respect

I hope all of your SOCOM achievements wernt because of the pot.  Because if they were then I might have to pick up the habit, so I can be good at it. LMAO

4/7/08   |   Dodge#9   |   2449 respect

What a moving story.  I'm extreamely proud of you. I'm glad you have found a home here with the rest of us on the Q.  Just remember the Q is a better place because of you.

4/7/08   |   Deadpool

Even though Steph thinks you should come to Phoenix to keep me in line, I'm glad that you are happy even if it;s in Michigan! I'm glad I could help you through some rough days, and thank you for helping me through some rough times (esp. the other Michigan girl)! You'll always be my #1 as well... Congrats!

4/6/08   |   maroon&gold4eve   |   14098 respect

Good job Angie.Keep it up.

4/6/08   |   js166

Thanks for sharing Angie. I am glad to have gotten to know you this last year You are truly an amazing person. Love ya

4/6/08   |   sports_schmorts   |   3301 respect

I am so proud of you Angie... SO very proud, you are a wonderful woman who deserves all that you have.  Bless you Angie, Bless you.